Firsts.....with pictures!

I think one of the most amazing things (there are soooo many other amazing things) about being a mommy is getting to experience baby's first __________. (fill in the blank) There are soo many! First smile, first bath, first giggle, first trip, well you get it! This post is about MG's first trip to the pumpkin patch and her first time playing in her jumperoo (or whatever the heck the thing is called)

Amy, Mom and I took MG to a small pumpkin patch in Winder, GA. (same town where my office is located) Being that I am the meals on wheels program coordinator for Barrow County, I drive around delivering meals to homebound people about 3 times a week, when my volunteers can't. I drove by this pumpkin patch several times and although it wasn't my first choice, (Washington Farms in Watkinsville was my first, but they were closed and i had to go that day, lol)we had alot of fun and got some pumpkins. They even had glass bottle dr. peppers and that made it even better!!

Here are some pictures from the adventure...(as many of you are on friends with me on facebook, i'm sure you have already seen them)


Auntie Amy and Molly Grace posing pretty!

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Mommy and Baby


MG with her new pumpkins, i'm afraid her dress was more interesting to her than the pumpkins!


this one is after the pumpkin patch at Loco's, but I thought I would include it because she is just too cute.

Now onto the next "first"...

MG has been seeming to get more mobile everyday so I decided to test out one of her toys and she loved it!! She is getting soo big! This toy when you sit in it and bounce up and down the lights and music come on....she was busy checking everything out and bouncing, it might be the first time her feet got to touch the floor and stay! she's growing up and while it is so exciting to see her doing things on her own, i miss the days where she was just sleeping everyday all day.

My heart literally swells with joy and feels like it will explode some days when I look at her and see how beautiful she is and how much she has changed in such a short amount of time.

Anyways! Here are a few pictures of her in her jumperoo! Can a baby be any cuter? Probably not. Even though I am biased.


checking everything out

One month from today....

MY BABY SISTER WILL BE A MARRIED WOMAN! AHHHHHHH!

can't wait.

i love you meggie peggie! love, mary beth

i love you aunt meg! love, molly grace

Letter to MG

Molly Grace,

I'm usually pretty good with words, but when it comes to describing just how happy you make me, I am at a loss.

Since I knew you were coming, I have looked forward to seeing you grow and love you.

You are such a blessing to your mommy and to everyone around you.

I love you more than anything in the world. I love you more than I love Dr. Pepper, or Scrubs, or FNL, which you will soon find out that those are mommy's favorites, but her most favoritist thing in the world is your smile and laugh, and when you lay your little head on my arm, all sprawled out and sleep! I love that you now are playing with your toys and giggle so loud when you grab hold of something you have worked so hard to get. I love when we go "flying" and the you smile so big. I love that you are the most precious baby girl ever. I love that sometimes all you want is mommy. Basically, I could list everything you do, but I love you sooo much and everything you do, even when you pull my hair.

I will always be here for you. No matter what. I want you to grow up and know that God loves you and he will never give you anything you can't handle. I want you to know that you are loved and were loved even before you got here.

You are my little baby bear. I promise to be the best mommy I can be.

Love,

Mommy

Love Hurts.

So I tend to stay away from blogging about matters of the heart, but there is no escape from the way I feel other than airing it out for you all to read. Here goes...

I love my daughter. very very much. I am so amazingly blessed with her. She truly is the most wonderful thing to happen to my life. I hope that as she grows up, she knows just how much I love her and that I would do anything, ANYTHING, for her.

While I was pregnant, after I knew for certain I was going to be a single mom, (I probably knew deep down this would be the case, but chose to hold out that maybe just maybe a certain person would come around), I lost all desire for a romantic relationship. I finally was able to let go of the need I had held onto for such a long time of needing the affection of a male. I let God fill that void in my life, and I was happy and free for the first time in a long, long time.

Not that I am not happy now, but now as MG gets older (yes, i realize the baby bear is only 3 months old, but still), she needs me less and less. And eventually, even though it will be a long time from now, she won't really need me at all. Then, again, I will be by myself. This thought has been creeping into my head. Satan is all over me I guess. He's got me thinking that because I have a baby, no man will ever want to date me, let alone marry me. Which is absolutely false. While I wouldn't change a thing about anything that has happened in the past year, I would like to grow old with someone who loves me and Molly Grace and I would like MG to know some sort of father figure.

My heart hurts a little thinking about how this. I will be okay. I just needed to write my thoughts down and let God work in my life. Make him my boyfriend and MG's father. He has a plan over my life that is bigger and better than anything that I could dream of.

While sitting at my desk, wondering if I'll ever know what is like to go on a "hot date" again, I looked up and saw an index card in which I had wrote on my first week of work that says, "Trust in HIS timing". So that is what I will do. I will trust in him and wait patiently. He gave me the greatest gift anyone ever could have given me, which is the ability to be a mother to Molly Grace. So I'm sure he has something wonderful up his sleeve for me that is yet to come.

Love,

Mary Beth

Update!

Hey friends!

MG is now 3 months old, 14 weeks today! She is growing into such a big girl!

This weekend I went to Rome and hung out with my sister, watched the dawgs lose (boo), and also got to meet little Mason Hall and catch up with Jessica. I pretty much stalked her blog while she was pregnant. For some reason, when I was preggers I craved to read people's blogs that I knew were pregnant as well. Her blog was awesome to read and gave me someone to relate to. I guess thats what I like best about blogging. Finding people who are going through similar situations and seeing other perspectives. Anyways, little Mason is adorable and I had so much fun catching up with Jess, reminscing a little about our high school days, but mainly talking about the most important people in our world, her little man and my little princess bear. I hope to see her, Adam, and Mason again soon!

The breastfeeding issues are still going on, but I will be ok. I am doing my best to pump what I can.

Here are a few pics of MG for your viewing pleasure!


MG is holding her head up so good these days! She's not far away from crawling!


she is sooooo cute!


taking a nap with Mason! Don't worry Nash and Caleb, ya'll still have potential to be MG's first boyfriend too! (Nash is Anna and Sarah's new nephew, and Caleb is my friend Natalie's baby boy who we still haven't met...we def. need to do that soon)



at IHOP with Amy and Cohan...she actually sat in her the seat the whole time we were there...she hasn't done that in a while!


she likes to eat her lambs (poodles?, we haven't decided what they are) on her carseat straps!

Thats all for now!

LOVE!
Mary Beth and Molly Grace

My Georgia Bulldawg Puppy...

Sooo much going on in the life and times of these two Toles girls.

I am definitely experiencing the stress of being a working, breastfeeding mom, mainly with the pumping. I love my job, but I'm crazy, crazy busy ALL DAY and am finding it hard to pump at work and when I do find the time, I'm so stressed about getting enough that I usually don't. Today I had to have Jana (her babysitter and cousin MWF) give her formula, which for whatever reason brought me to tears. Yes, actual tears. I am also suffering the side effects of my little love waking up constantly at night. I sometimes wish I had a partner to help me be strict on getting MG to sleep in her crib not want to eat every 3-4 hours. I have been reading a blog with a mom who is sleep training her child and am thinking that as MG approaches 3 months (TOMORROW...AHH!), she is old enough and smart enough to stick to it and adjust. I need sleep to produce milk and I need sleep to function!! And so does she!!

She giggled at me this weekend and I swear to you I cried. She is the most adorable little princess ever.

This weekend was Amy's parents weekend in Athens, she is KD at UGA, and I took the little bulldawg puppy to meet gameday in Athens. I got alot of looks like "you are so brave". It was definitely stressful for me, but she enjoyed it! It was nice to spend the day with my family, who happens to be the greatest. Here are some pictures of my angel baby all dressed up to root for the dawgs!











LOVE!

Mary Beth and Molly Grace