I'd thought I'd come up with a little blog about what being pregnant means to me...
First, I'll start with the most recent "symptom". SWELLING. I'm officially done with this pregnancy and how I know so is that I'm swollen. My feet are huge, my fingers are like sausages, I can't put any of my jewelry on. My ring, which I have worn pretty much everyday for 7+ years, yeah, it doesn't fit. Oh, and apparently, my lips are swollen. GRRREEEEAT. BUT, there is a positive. I'm almost done. 11 more days.
So in conclusion, the first exhibit I would like to enter into what it means to be pregnant to me, is that you SWELL. :) Not only with fluid, but with love for this little baby girl who has already made me a better person, which means I can handle being swollen, she is worth it.
Second, I'd like to enter another exhibit: the endless and annoying opinions of everyone in the world. You get this when you are pregnant. Everyone has something to say about EVERY LITTLE THING. I like advice, but for the most part the only I advice I like is what I get from people I seek it from. I don't really care what joe-schmo has to say about me having to commute thirty minutes to work, or how I shouldn't be induced (which isn't happening now), or how I shouldn't have a c-section, I should just ask my doctor to turn her around. The thought of someone trying to turn a 5-7 pound baby in my stomach does not sound appealing to me. People also like to comment on how big you are, how they don't think you'll make it to your date, etc. People should just say congratulations. But! It's ok. These people are only trying to help and I can't help that I have raging pregnant woman hormones. So, secondly what being pregnant means to me is that you learn to take things that are said with a grain of salt. It helps put life into perspective. People's advice and opinions are only proof that we are all different and a reminder to me to remember that everyone is different, and it's not a bad thing. You can always learn from everyone's difference and being able to see that it is ok to be different, I think, is beautiful.
Third, being pregnant has taught me that life is hard. Life is about doing things you don't want to do everyday. But you do them. You get up and go to work everyday, and be thankful that you have a job, especially in this economy. You go back to work after your doctor's appointment when all you want to do is go home and cry after your plans have changed, and you make it through the day. I have learned that I can keep going. I can do it. I think this has prepared me for motherhood. So many times throughout this pregnany I have heard "it's going to be hard, you're going to be so tired when the baby wants to eat, you are going to wake up and not want to be a mom that day", etc. I know there will be these days, BUT, I have them now, and I do what I have to do and I survive. I've learned to look at the bright side of things, I'll have someone to share those moments with and so much to look forward to with little Miss Molly Grace that I know those moments of desperation will be only slim to the moments of joy she will bring to my life. So, being pregnant means to me that YOU CAN MAKE IT. YOU SURVIVE, and THRIVE.
Fourth, Being pregnant means accepting change. Change happens. ALL THE TIME. plans change. Your body changes. Once you accept that things WILL AND DO change, the better off you will be. I learned last night that the house we were moving into supposedly, oh ya know, next week, well, we aren't moving into it anymore. The owner decided he could not have it ready for move into until September. This was not what Kim or I wanted to hear, but we have found a new house that can be ready by July 1 and are applying for it today. Please pray that the owner accepts our application. I love the house and I am ready for peace about my living situation. I know that God has his hand over the situation and he will provide. So, be praying that we can get moved in at least somewhat before this baby comes.
Lastly, being pregnant means you learn a new type of love. A love that is not initiated by physical sight or appearance of a person, or of their personality. You LOVE with all you have for someone you haven't met yet and that is beautiful. You love despite how sick they may have made you the first three months (I realize this is totally not her fault at all, so MG if you read this later, I don't blame you for the sickness, just making a point), you love despite the swelling, the tiredness, mood swings. YOU LOVE. Which I believe is what the world is all about.
So there. I'm 37 weeks today and these are few of the things pregnancy has taught me.
Pregnancy means to me something so special and such a gift, no matter what circumstance. I am so blessed.
I love you Molly Grace. And I love being pregnant with you.
LOVE,
always,
Mary Beth
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Oh I've definitely learned to take most pregnancy/child rearing advice with a grain of salt. And I hear you on the huge comments. Luckily you don't have to hear much of it for too much longer! Everyone wants to give their input, but in the end, you do what's best for your child, and I know you're going to make a great Mom!
ReplyDeletecuuuute mary beth. you seem to be in a really great place. i was such a stick in the mud. at my last doctors visit i was going to punch my doctor in the mouth if she didnt send me to the hospital to be induced.
ReplyDeleteso sorry to hear you might have to get a c section. but oh well right. as long as she gets here in one piece and healthy, all is well.
good luck. im so happy for you. its going to be so great.